home injections

This week is my 5th week of doing methotrexate injections at home. For a long time I avoided doing them at home just out of fear.


Home tattoos aren't a problem
Home piercings aren't a problem
Getting blood taken is not an issue
Doing piercings professionally isn't a problem


I can't seem to do the injections.  It stopped being an option for me to go to a clinic and get them done after I moved because the closest one is a 50+ minute walk away or an uphill bike ride.  Over time the pills quit bothering me, I'm sure I'll get used to the IV treatments.  I've just accepted the constant aches and stiffness and lack of mobility as part of my life.  My cane isn't the huge embarrassment it used to be but the fact all of this stress is constant and unwavering just wears you down.
  I've tried to make things more comfortable, I try to relax and get things done quickly.  There's always something I've got ready to go do as soon as I'm done, like a meal or a film or I'll have TF2 loading as a distraction.  If there's a way to make doing these easier, I don't know it.

First swings

If I'm going to be stuck in my flat because of illness, but with a head still full of sharp ideas, I may as well put it all somewhere.  
All of the simple and significant things about me are point-formed on the side.  I'm small, in my early 20s and dealing with a chronic illness that leaves me not really able to work or even get around.  Even though I do have a lot of mobility issues, I try to keep up with all of my old interests and hobbies, like bike riding, sewing, baking, and general mischief.  Social responsibility and shattering the really fucked up mentality of how to treat other earthlings is critically important to me.  There are too many things going on in the world because people are over complacent with what the distorted media and corporate puppets in the government are feeding us and it has to stop.  If there's one thing worth fighting for, its living free and honest.